Anxiety

all will be well.
alles wird gut.

Faces formed from bubbles

...
I´ve got a riddle for you.
about the bubbles in the sink
when i look into the mirror
for as only just to think,
am i hidden in a corner
are my eyes so poor of sight
is there anybody out there
who can tell me what is right

I´m just a smalltown girl
in a cover, in a shell
I´m a nutcase on the way to
being sent to hell.
and it´s vital
but it´s funny
isn´t it a pleasent sight
when you´re standing all alone
beside your mirror late at night

you´ve seen that face before
but there´s a person coming up,
and you laugh because the bubbles
make that popping noise.
will you find a way to save
all the goodness in your heart
all the bubbles keep on forming
on your skin afterall.

I´ve got a riddle for you.
Flush lights off
how do you do?
Flush lights on
suddenly gone...
i´ve got a riddle for you.

And it´s funny isn´t it
i need a messege in my voice
to seek powers born from riddles
and from all those sounds
because i hear them creeping towards me
so i rather would sit down
and i lean back on the toilet
and the water´s going loud

I´m just a small town girl
and i end each scene
because it never had been held before
and never could be seen,
simply bow politely
when i see my face again
and it´s smiling cause it´s happy
that there is an end.

I´ve got a riddle for you.
Flush lights off.
How do you do?
Flush light on.
Suddenly gone.
I´ve got a riddle for you.

And it´s funny isn´t it,
I think you laughed before.
but you will never catch that moment
it just won´t happenen anymore.
so i get up in a wink
and i turn off the switch
and the noise is getting louder
well it´s tragic isn´t it.


I´ve got a riddle for you.

a short story

(another one i had forgotten...)

There was one thing in life she didn´t like.
Being left.
Certainly not, being left alone. Because she was not alone.
She was sure of this.
Maybe just, being left out.
Or left behind.
She felt like she had often been left in life.
Sometimes she had been left unseen
or left alone,
and sometimes she had missed out on things too.
She didn´t like that much.
Her whole perspective on the world also seemed to be left.
She wasn´t sure if she liked that either because it meant
knowing what is right.
She didn´t know what was right, and she didnt know what was wrong.
She just knew that she didn´t like being left.
Being left was definatly not right.

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3.3.09

love of love

lovely lovely love of songs
and other loves i love upon
my dear good friend
if love is proud
the songs we sing shall not be loud
they shall not break
they will not bend
these lovely times, they dare not end.

We´ll make much noise
to sing and prance
and love the tunes to which we dance
but they will fail
and we will stop
for times in tune cannot be caught
And love in time is not for sure
but when it is, it will be clear.

lovely lovely love of sound
and other loves that i have found.


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may 2009

Expanding Rubberbands

All my dreams
like living in trees
and staying in flow
wherever I go
Or finding, alas
the ways as they pass
and following footsteps
through snow,

have vanished,
are taken by true things,
mistaken for cover up
visions of dreams,
they´re feelings of moments
but what is a moment,
when everything is
as it seems.

Dear current, I seek you
and strive for the feeling
of knowing which path
i should take,
and long for a reason,
a feeling of reason
for choosing the choices
i make.

Recollecting the hope
drawn together by
faith
in a world where
all comes to an end,
no more dreams
shall be deaded
no more choices
regretted


Every footstep
will be in its place.

A collection of phrases and short poems 06-08

Ein Hoch auf die Welt!
Ich lasss mich von ihr tragen,
nur sie kennt die Schwermut
die von ihr ausgeht.
Eine Bürde, die zu tragen
sie immer bereit ist.
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I am a restless soul
with a comfortless heart
and a leap racing mind
I always get ahead of myself
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This is what i see when i look into my face
and i strive for what i feel,
an emotion taking place.
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So long dear friend i thought of you often, i spoke of you seldom
and felt what i shouldn´t and once whispered to you at a party.
The sight of you is pleasant
I charish every moment.
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In der vergangenheit wühlt so mancher hase.
können wollknäuel sich verheddern,
so gibt es auch heut nichts anderes zu tun, als die knoten zu öffnen,
neue dinge zu erfinden, und alte zu verwerten,
indem rücksichtslos auf das geschossen wird, was sich nicht richten lässt.
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So all things have meaning and i think i missed
the chances been given to fulfill my bliss.
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This means nothing
this is normal
this is real
and all is well.
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Em otions Schmarotzer
Emo tions Schmarotzer
Emotions Schma rotzer
Emotions Schmarotz er
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Read in books about what i learn.
I am not that kind.
People, places, moments in time.
Grummelig, grimmig, grämmend.
Looky kriegt nie genug.
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I am "fashion"
I am "music"
I am "art"
I am "fancy"
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We have this connection
we call it alike
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But seeing that affecting you was something i felt true,
i wonder why affecting me, was not enough for you.
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I believe that puddles left to dry, never do.
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My mind is like my mood
my mood is like my mouth
my mouth is like my heart
my heart is like myself
i like myself this way
blank.
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I don´t believe in stories anymore.
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married men
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sweep up a cloud
prepare for a storm!
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weniger denken.
mehr essen.
mehr sprechen.
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What is it i lie about?
Where is it i´m heading to?
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I lost my money back in town
It must be by the sea...
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Maybe i´m all wrong again because i like to be
always finding people who are glad that they found me.
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Though i am fine i am not
Though i am happy i am lonely
though i don´t change i grow older
and though i don´t show i do feel.
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paper bags
what did you say?
i thought it was funny
but i have forgotten it already.
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so we are all diffrent.
as we all are the same.
but what makes us diffrent
is from where we came.
is for what we do
is for what we seek
and all those very little things
that make us unique.
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Herzen brechen durch versprechen,
nichts versprechen kann auch brechen.
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Wilde Untergänge tragen nicht zu den
Aufgängen der Dinge bei.
Sie bewirken wenig und verändern viel.
Sie stossen ab was sie nicht brauchen
und tauchen ein in ein neues.
Vorrausgesetzt der Aufgang ist der
selbe wie gestern.
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I still come back to this place!
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Ist alles in meinem Kopf?
"in meinem Kopf, in meinem Kopf"!?
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talking nonsense
making jokes and playing games.
oh how i love to play those games.
now, is this time or is this space
or am i inbetween?
i wonder what i am thinking in,
what time?
saturday night.
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swans and geese, unmistakenly shameful
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ich.
liebe.
das leben.
ich.
hasse.
das leben.
ich.
bin.
ich.
sterbe.
ich.
mache.
ich.
träume.
nicht.
genug.
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Mit meinem Leben ist es wie mit meinem Gewand.
Ich habe immer genug, aber nie das richtige davon.
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